By Robert Lyons, TBI 10-1990
The one constant throughout history has been change. Naturally people have a wide variety of changes in their lives. A few examples are; births/deaths, marriage/divorce, people move, new jobs/let-go, retire, become disabled. Over time, or better put by one’s life experiences will allow us to better adapt to life’s changes, which are inevitable for all.
Personally, after “my father, my hero” (as I eulogized him) joined my dear mom in Heaven, I have encountered a major change in my life. As I try to see into the future, I foresee living in 3 States for a while each year, now. Being permanently disabled, my dear family has made arrangements that I will live with them, in their beautiful homes for a while, each year. I hope to show them, by my actions, just how grateful, I am! As I journey down life’s road, I anticipate that there will necessarily be both; good and not so go situations, which are changing in my life. As my recovery develops, I am learning to accept and embrace chance. I feel that this is all part of becoming “God-dependent.” Because each of us has free-will, we will make decisions, which will shape the road we are taking. As a “God-loving” person, I hope & pray to always try my best to use sound judgment to help guide me to Eternity.
Very shortly after my dad passed on, as I was drifting off to sleep, I would go over my day in prayer with my dear folks in Heaven. I would celebrate the successes/joys with them. I would also think about those things, which I feel that I could have done better. If I hurt someone’s feelings, or otherwise let them down, I would try my best to correct this. I anticipate that I will always communicate through prayer with my dear folks!
However, as my recovery develops, I am noticing a wonderful phenomenon is developing. It is that as I am becoming more cognitively aware of my loved one’s & my situations, I have & hope to continue with this decision making process. As my day progresses, I now find that when I have to make a decision, I will try to think about what my dear folks would have done. Both of them were very loving, caring, thoughtful & compassionate people. So, for as long as I am alive, I hope to use the judgment that they both taught me, to live my life the correct way! This will be the way that God wants me to live. I hope to always be able to see God’s total love for all living things, through their eyes. In essence, I hope & pray that I will always rely upon my parents as my conscience now, which is totally logical to me, as I am well-familiar with their voices and logic.
I feel as if, my accident has thrown me into a dangerous river. As I swim for my life, I will rely upon my dear family & true friends to keep me afloat. Plus, by their compassionate & unselfish love, assures me that I will once again return to calm waters. So, each of you, in your own way have been a life jacket, which has allowed me to keep my head up, just when I felt that I would give up! My life goal is to always try my very best to adjust to our ever-changing, wonderful world. By living my life this way, I will be demonstrating how valuable, unique & precious each of our lives are.